Peeling Away the Onion Layers peeling layersAll these years, these calendar years that have passed. All this perceived time…


I have slowly been peeling away, peeling away the onion layers. Slowly, sometimes painfully, sometimes cheerfully, sometimes frustratingly, peeling away the onion layers. The toddler times, the early childhood times, the pre-teen times, the teenage times, etc…peeling, not the years, but the experiences, the challenges, the lessons, the discoveries.


Some of you may have been seeing this: “She is changing, yeah, she’s changed (or maybe disappointingly) oh, she changed”. Even I myself for a very long time saw changes, only changes. Yes I am changing. But was I?


As I peel the onion layers, I am not really changing. I am REVEALING. Peeling away, learning, connecting, searching within, I am revealing my True Self. All those layers that I’ve left behind, were part of my journey, my quest to find my True Self within. All those layers were carefully plastered onto my true Self right after I was born into this physical body. My parents began their work quickly, just like any other parents do. No, I am not blaming my parents for any wrong-doing. How could they know? They themselves have lived all their lives covered in onion layers which were plastered onto their True Selves by their own parents. It is a chain that started a very long time ago and has been passed on. After my parents added the layers they felt were necessary, I continued adding some more myself.


What are all these onion layers? As you awaken into your spirituality, you can recognize them. Layers of trends, fears, insecurities, peer pressures, false identities, personalities to impress others, etc…what great damage have I done to my True Self. Most people do recognize them, but there is a layer that keeps them from doing anything about it, or even caring. They see the layers as protective, comforting, easy. Why break out of your comfort zone?


I want to reveal my True Self. I AM going to keep peeling the onion layers. Some feel painful, some feel easy, some are so subtle that I don’t even notice when they come off. All is within. Knowledge, Wisdom, Happiness, God/Goddess/the Divine. It is the quest to find my True Self within, as I continue to peel away the onion layers.


If you see me changing, you are not really paying attention.




Nam Kirin Kaur

the sacred Princess/Lioness who manifests the Light of the Divine in the world by meditating on the Name of God.

Expanding Awareness with Kundalini Yoga

awitchsjourney.comAbout 2 years ago I became interested in Kundalini Yoga. I had already tried a couple of yoga classes (not Kundalini) and enjoyed it. The teachers were a couple with a small child, they were kind and very good teachers. Unfortunately for me, they had decided to go back to India. My gratitude to them.


One day I saw that the New York Open Center was having a short course in Kundalini Yoga, and I quickly signed up. I scrambled to find comfortable white clothes to wear for the class, as I had read that in Kundalini Yoga people wear all white. Most of my clothing is black so you can imagine how difficult was for me. I found some simple clothes to wear and went to my class, very excited and nervous. There I met Donna Amrita Davidge, a vibrant woman who blessed me with my first Kundalini Yoga experience. During our first class we did an exercise in which we sat in easy pose (cross legged), facing a stranger (class mate), and just stared into each others’ eyes and I had my first boohoo moment. I cried as I clearly heard this woman say “I love you” without opening her mouth. I felt her love, as a human to another human. Of course there was laughter as well in the group, as some just became giggly during the exercise, and it was all beautiful. I really felt the connection. The entire experience with Donna Davidge was eye opening for me, and heart opening as well. I found a practice that was not only very spiritual, but also strengthened my body as a whole. Kundalini Yoga certainly is a complete experience. And that was it for me, I wanted more. Sadly, this was a very short course. I did come back the second time that Donna Amrita Davidge came to teach at the New York Open Center, and after that I wanted to find more regular classes. I asked her about two yoga studios that I had found online, and she gave me her recommendations on both, saying they were very good places to go to.


As I’ve done before, I tried to get a friend to join me for at least one class so that I wouldn’t have to go by myself and feel so vulnerable. However, that didn’t work, and I decided to just go for it on my own. And so, I went to Kundalini Yoga East. There, after a warm welcome by the front desk person, I joined the class.


First of all, if you are wondering, as I did, why is it that people wear all white to Kundalini Yoga, I can tell you what I’ve learned so far. According to Yogi Bhajan (the spiritual leader who introduced Kundalini Yoga to the USA), wearing all white clothing expands our auric radiance. White is the representation of all colors in one, so you also get the benefit of all colors together.


Kundalini Yoga is the Yoga of Awareness. It is a total experience. You chant mantras, you meditate, you practice many breathing exercises, and physical exercises. When I first took classes with Donna Davidge I realized this is tough! I was sore for a week after the first class but of course, I’m not an athlete so there is that to consider. But still, it is not exactly easy. There is a lot of fighting your Ego which constantly tries to stop you from doing things, making you think you can not, making you feel that you can not and constantly trying to distract you and talking you into quitting. I’m really glad that I decided not to listen to the Ego trap and I kept coming back to class.


Since I’ve begun to practice Kundalini Yoga more often, I’ve noticed a few changes. They have been slow, but they are happening. I have more patience with the world although I still need to work on it more. I am more calm in general, and when a situation does stress me out, I am able to calm myself down faster and easier. I’ve also begun to feel more connected to all, and I feel more compassion for others, which sometimes can be, difficult. One example; right before New Year’s eve I saw a woman on the train who had a very sad expression on her face. I see this woman often on the train but this day she looked particularly sad, as if she was about to cry. I wondered why she looked so sad, was she missing someone? At the end of the year, did she feel lonely? I smiled at her, but I really  just wanted to walk up to her and give her a big hug and tell her that I loved her. Another woman near me noticed the same thing I guess, and she was also smiling at the woman. I was just too shy to simply walk up to her and give her that hug. But I just felt so sad…I felt it strongly in my heart.


It is difficult to explain some of the changes that I am experiencing. But I must also mention that my Reiki practice is still part of the positive influence in my changes, because it really is. I do my Reiki self-practice right before Kundalini Yoga class and before going to sleep. The balancing effects of Reiki are also responsible for all these changes no doubt.

On April 5, 2014, I joined many more Kundalini Yoga practitioners on a wonderful, big event called White Tantric Yoga. I had heard about White Tantric Yoga before, and I wanted to join the big event last November, but I was to be out of the country. This time I wasn’t going to miss it and I am so glad I didn’t. During White Tantric Yoga, we practice a number of meditations and mantras throughout the day. A meditation can last for 31 minutes, with a break after and then another one, then a break, and so on. The practice is done in pairs, sitting in very straight lines across the room. It is very challenging because of all the time you have to be sitting, but it is also a very unique experience. There really is no way of explaining much, all I can say is that each person has their own experience and it is not the same for all, but we all learn and grow from it, and we expand our consciousness. I did become emotional at the end of the day, and cried a little. I am grateful to Yogi Bhajan and to all who made the event possible and all who participated. I am looking forward to doing it again!


We were told that we’d be feeling the effects of White Tantric Yoga for about 40 days. So far, I have had unusual dreams, mostly related to animals so far. Last night I had a very personal and powerful experience which I will keep to my personal journal (sorry). It’s been 6 days…


Eternal gratitude to Donna Amrita Davidge, The New York Open Center and Kundalini Yoga East.

The gratitude that I feel is immense. May the blessings continue.

Sat Nam.

Healers: are we unable to heal ourselves?

pentacle AWJ

Lately, I’ve been pondering this question. Are healers unable to heal themselves? I don’t mean this in a strict, literal way of course. Just wondering if the majority of healers just don’t heal themselves at all.


I believe, as many others do, that to be able to help others, we must first help ourselves. To be strong enough to take care of others, we must first take care of ourselves. Love and care for our bodies, minds and spirits. Eat properly, exercise, meditate, sleep. What we invest in ourselves we are able to share with others. A person that is ill, can not possibly take care of another. This is all common sense.


Then why is it that the majority of healers that I know and have met, are constantly giving of themselves to others, while never taking proper care of themselves? Many are even sick half the time, never even considering their own health, constantly pushing themselves, and pushing aside their own needs.


One way of seeing why this happens is this. How can I think of myself, when there are so many who need my help? How can I possibly spend time pampering myself, when others need of me? How could I possibly neglect them, there is just so much to do, so much healing needed in the world, I can not possibly take time to think of me! This person is sick, that person is sick, they need healing, prayers, herbal remedies, etc…I will take care of myself later….


Recently, I was watching a Japanese anime (yes I’m a fan of Japanese anime), that had a particular character which made me think of this subject, and made me want to write about this question that I’ve been asking myself. This anime, titled Arata Kangatari/Arata the Legend, has a character named Kotoha. She is a healer, also could be called a Kitra which is a term used in the Temple I am a member of, Temple Sahjaza and it means a healer, counselor, nurturer, among many other things. Well, Kotoha is a healer, and she works with her hands. She uses a healing touch. At one point in the story, she gets physically hurt, and her friend asks her “Can you not heal yourself?” and her answer is “No, my power only works to heal others, but not myself.” That made me think. It is very literal here, that this healer has a limitation to her powers, and that limitation puts her in great risk. If she was with other healers of her tribe, then it would be fine because they can all take care of each other. Out on her own, it is not so.


Although this was a fictional character in a story, I had to compare it to real life healers that I’ve met, including myself. Are we like Kotoha? Not literally, but do we just not know how to heal ourselves? Are we so preoccupied, so engulfed in the task of helping others to heal, that we can not take seriously the fact that we really must heal ourselves first, before we can properly care for others? How can we correct this behavior?


There have been times when I honestly am not sure what to do when I don’t feel well physically, mentally and/or spiritually. It is more like my mind goes blank, and I suddenly can’t react properly, I can not react like I would when, say, my mother needs an herbal remedy for a cold, or someone needs a healing prayer, a candle spell, etc… My husband has sometimes brought this up to me, to my own surprise. How is it that you know all these healing remedies and things, and yet you can not figure out what you need to do for yourself? Why does this happen? Is it a state of mind that I get stuck in sometimes? Or do I just need to get used to caring more about myself?


The Internet really is a double-edged sword. It helps us learn so much and connect, but wow, it can be so harmful too. The amount of people asking for help, prayers and healing energy is overwhelming and draining. What do we do? Can we really say no? I’m sure a lot of times people say yes, prayers, but they don’t really pray. It is just too much. It really breaks my heart when I start to think about it. I have to stop myself, otherwise I’ll be depressed and that is not helpful at all.


My Reiki teacher, Pamela Miles, strongly believes that taking care of ourselves is very important and we should do Reiki self-practice every single day, at least once. To her, this is the base of a healthy life and healthy Reiki practice. I completely agree with Pamela, and I do my Reiki self-practice every day, at least once a day and more if I can accommodate. I decided to take Kundalini Yoga classes more frequently as another way of taking care of myself. These are the steps I’ve taken to improve my self-care, and I know that I need to do more.


I would love to know what other healers are doing to take care of their needs. What are you doing to heal thyself, healer?


Love & Light,
Priestess Oscura N.

Love is…

Love is a power like no other. I really have trouble describing love. It  is one of those things you have to experience, not talk about.


Love makes a difference; it changes perspectives; it brings light into the darkest places. Don’t get me wrong, without darkness there is no light, but you know what I mean, we need balance. 😉


Through the years, I’ve had people ask me for love spells. To that I usually say, I don’t think you really need to do that. To find love no spells are needed really, you just have to truly want it, welcome it and accept it in your life. You need to first love yourself, appreciate who you are, all of it, the parts that you like and the parts you don’t like. Love and care for yourself, and only then will you be able to love and care for others. Why? Because we are all like cells in one giant being; like pieces of one puzzle; like parts of one organic machine. We may have grown up believing the notion that we are separate individuals who do our own thing, live our own lives, and that’s all that matters. But the truth is not like that. We all affect each other, influence each other and are connected to each other. All of us. This is why I’m against war, but that’s a whole other subject, or as my mother would say “esos son otros veinte pesos” (translation: “that’s another twenty dollars.” it’s a Puerto Rican saying).


As the world continues to change and people slowly (and hopefully) moving into a spiritual awakening, love becomes even more important and takes a front seat in our lives. I’ve felt that more and more, Love  is all we need to bring balance, harmony and peace to this world.


But again, start by loving yourself. Give yourself credit for all that you do. You are here today, you have been through a lot and yet here you stand. Turn the TV off, don’t let it dictate what love is, what being happy is. The media has completely distorted positive things like love, happiness, joy, just so that a few can get wealthy by brainwashing people into buying their products in order to be “happy”, or “loved”. That is a road that leads not to true love, but to empty, short-lived fake love. So with that said, love yourself! You are wonderful because you are part of it all, just like me and the person next to you.


If you are at a point in your life in which you want to attract romantic love, and start a relationship, that is also wonderful as long as you practice self-love on a daily basis. If you’ve ever asked anyone “how do I know when it’s love?” “how do I find real love?” and the answer has ever sounded anything like this: “You’ll know when it arrives”, or “When you least expect it”, don’t feel frustrated by those answers. That is really how it works. The more you search, the less you find. That is why I’m inviting you to just focus on loving yourself and appreciating yourself, and taking good care of yourself first. Because, the light that shines from within you will become even brighter from the self-nourishment, and will surely attract love. Remember, like attracts like. If you’ve been in a not so good relationship, take some time now to heal. Let it be, let things flow, stay still and meditate. If you don’t want to attract more of what you don’t like, then you need to shift your thoughts into what you like. Don’t say things like, ” I never want another person to treat me this way”, NO! Don’t do that, you will attract what you are focusing on with your words! Instead, say things like “I attract kind, loving people into my life.” “I attract responsible, loving, fun, caring people into my life”. “I am surrounded by love, kindness, joy and positive people”. Notice the difference? Write it down every day, repeat it in your mind, until you automatically think and say it. It doesn’t matter if these things are not in your life at the moment because soon they will be, if you continue to focus on them.


I remember, I used to say to my mom, “I want my marriage to be as loving, fun and caring as yours”. I got exactly what I said I wanted, and it gets better every day!


I know that life has its ups and downs, and frustrations, but those are just experiences and we choose wether we let them rule our lives or we learn from them and let them go. The harder you hold on to that which doesn’t make you happy, the harder it will be for love and happiness to come into your life.


Choose love, and it will choose you. :) Next, I will post a simple Love Spell for those of you who want to strengthen your intention to attract Love into your lives.

Rings of love

The Power of Our Emotions, Thoughts, Words, Intention

Happy FoodIt’s very easy to fall into the trap of focusing on all the things we don’t want in our lives. There is the saying “when it rains, it pours”. Remember that? One thing seems to go wrong and then another, and another. And we ask ourselves, “why me?”, “what did I do wrong?”, “why now?”. Then we start feeling like crap, start feeling sorry for ourselves, and it’s all downhill from there. Any of this sound familiar?


I’ve been down that road. It really does work like that. One nightmare after another. I was depressed, seeing no relief in the future, no recovery, no happiness. Of course I wasn’t down every waking second. There were days when I felt better, and had some of my strength come back, but it was always in short periods of time and then I’d go right back down. Something would slightly hit me and I’d tumble down in an instant. Eventually, I sought out a therapist because I was tired of feeling like that and wondered if this would help. I saw a couple of psychologists. They were very good, and helped me sort out many things, helped me understand some of my inner puzzles. Talking to them wasn’t really what helped, because I did that with my mother all the time and enjoyed it and still do. How they helped me was by having experience that I didn’t have and using it to find the best way to help me find the best way. No that wasn’t a typo.


After seeing the therapists for a couple of years intermittently, I felt that they had done what they could and moved on. Things were certainly better, or at least I was handling it all a little better. But I wasn’t “there yet”. Things had to get worse to force me to really do something about it all. And I don’t regret anything…


One night, after suffering for several years with living conditions that were causing a lot of emotional damage on us, things had reached a dangerous edge. I rather not go into details about the exact situation. But let’s just say, the police had to be involved at one point. When my beloved got physically hurt by the situation we were living in, that’s was it, that was the trigger; that was when I stood up, put my foot down hard, and said out loud: “that’s enough, this ends now, this changes now”. Something along those lines. I made a decision, and not just any decision we make on a daily basis. This was a declaration, I was sending my intention loudly into the Universe. I was consciously making a change with my words, shaping my life, our life with a very emotional and strong declaration. And the changes began…


Not only did we move, but we finally found a place to live where we had the peace we needed. Some of our visitors have said that they can breathe peace when they are in our home. We reached a balance that we had been missing, and it felt great. Anytime I’ve made big changes in my life, or have seen someone close to me make big changes, I see that it usually starts with a potent declaration which usually happens after a very difficult situation hits us really hard.


This was only one example, one situation in which I “made my declaration”, set my intention on changing it. It’s not the only time I’ve done it. And I must say, it is very powerful stuff. Our thoughts, our intentions, our emotions, all put together, all focused on the same direction can make a huge impact in our lives an the lives of those around us. Using them all at once is a great tool that we can use  repeatedly, and it works. I’ve never gone back. Once I changed course, the waters just got more and more pleasant. And the more pleasant they got the less I thought of the awful things that had transpired. Even now, whenever I think back to any of those awful times, I see them differently now. They are not part of my current life, they are only experiences and they don’t own me.


Now gratitude is something I practice on a daily basis. And if I ever feel depressed or weak, which of course happens, I just let it be, I let myself be. If I’m depressed today, I will allow myself to feel that way. It isn’t a horrible thing, it’s not a tragedy, it’s not something I deserve blah blah etc…I see it as a natural occurrence that happens to me and to others as well. It is simply that, and it passes and then I’m perfectly fine again. It is not the end, it’s much more simple than that. I don’t need to hold on to it, I only let it happen and let it take its course. No need to put it on the spotlight and worship it and marry it. Am I driving the point home? I hope so.


In conclusion, there is no secret, no gimmick, it isn’t an impossible task. It is our decision to change it all.

Sprinkle some Fun in your Craft [Pagan Blog Project]

Blessings all,AWJ Pentacle

When I first started studying the Craft back in 1991-92, I remember being excited, reading a lot but most of all, doing a lot. I wanted to cast spells, celebrate rituals, feel and experience as much as I could. To me, learning about the Craft was serious, but it was also fun to learn all these new wonderful things that I felt an affinity, a connection to.


It was a lot of fun when I started celebrating rituals with my small group of Pagan friends, which was usually at the beach. We’d bring our magic tools, robes, candles in lanterns, then we’d look for a good spot. It really was so much fun to work together. Jumping the fire during Beltane was one of the most fun things we did. It was fun even when we accidentally scared the crap out of someone who unknowingly was taking a walk at the beach and suddenly bumped into us (just imagine, he saw a group of people dressed in different color robes with hoods on, standing around in a circle with candles, one holding up a dagger). Sorry, we really didn’t mean to scare you. We always took our craft seriously, but we had fun too.


Over the years, as work, responsibilities, and all kinds of experiences with people and situations have been part of the process of life, things did change a bit. I became more cautious, and retreated back into solitary practice. Moving into a very different place also made the “cautious” part be more necessary for me. And all the responsibilities and stresses of life took the front seat while my Craft took the back seat. I was too serious about so many things that it rubbed off into my Craft, and I couldn’t even see that.

Eventually I found a group of like-minded individuals and began a new chapter in my life, and my Craft. It was a slow process, but it was happening. I was still very serious as I wanted them to know that I was dedicated. The fun did come back slowly, with the help of my new Craft friends and I started feeling more empowered.


Now that I’m a Priestess, I’ve had some trouble in the fun department. The responsibilities can make a person become locked into a too-focused state, and then everything becomes too serious and formal. Don’t get me wrong, learning, studying and practicing the Craft is something that we all should take seriously. I mean, do you really think it wise to joke around with a healing spell for someone’s mother? It probably wouldn’t be a good idea to joke around during an exorcism. There are many things that could go wrong if you  were to act like everything is fun and games. We need to be focused when we are doing our magical work, but we can’t be 100% serious all the time. When we are too serious we can become stiff, tense, and that could create energy blocks on us and our work, and  sometimes we could just go blank from so much tension and forget what we must do or say next during a ritual. It affects our energy and the energy of our work and the group if we are working with one. We can integrate some fun into our Craft, we really must. And sometimes when we don’t, the spirits and Deities themselves will remind us to do so. Some spirits and Deities are tricksters by nature, and some will suddenly do funny things (I’m looking at you Lord Ganesha! :) ) as a way of saying “Lighten Up!”. Really, whenever I sprinkle some fun, the ritual feels more enjoyable, everyone seems to feel lighter and more receptive.

Singing and dancing are fun activities that also bring great energy into our Craft and there are many other activities that are fun like creating your own magical tools. And laughter, well laughter is wonderful. It has the power not only to make people happy, feel lighter and break tension, it can also dispel negativity. :)


So, remember to sprinkle some Fun in your Craft whenever possible! :)

My New Reiki Hands

What is Reiki?

Reiki is a spiritual healing practice that can help return us to balanced functioning on every level – physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, even social – regardless of our age or state of health. Reiki treatment is usually facilitated by light touch, typically bringing rapid stress reduction and relief from pain and anxiety. It is not an ancient practice, in fact it originated in the early 1920’s in Japan with a man named Mikao Usui.

I’ve had an interest in Reiki for a long time, but I never really decided to read a book about it or get involved in it until recently. My interest was based on my desire to help myself heal and help others heal in an effective way that wouldn’t cause harm to anyone and wouldn’t require me to go to medical school since I don’t really have an interest in conventional medicine.

There are lots of Reiki practitioners in my area, and many that teach so it was not easy to find the right teacher. I got a business card from a classmate at a Tarot class I was attending, and I looked up that teacher. Still, I wasn’t convinced this was the right teacher. So I waited, and waited. About two months ago, I finally decided to get a good book to start learning at least the basic information about Reiki (I know I can read a lot online but I like to read on the train). I walked over to the nearest Borders, and I found only one Reiki book on the shelves, and without much thought I bought it. I started reading it almost immediately and enjoyed the book, and really connected with the way the author communicated. It was so easy to read and understand, I couldn’t put it down. I decided to look up the author’s website. To my surprise I had seen this website before, but didn’t really pay attention to it at that time. I guess it is true what they say that when it’s the right time, the door opens.

It didn’t take me long to make up my mind and sign up for First Degree Reiki classes. I was so excited I could barely contain myself. The classes would be for 3 evenings and I was ready. Finally it was that day. I adjusted my work hours so that I could leave a bit early to make it in time. The group was small-ish, and it was all female.

For three evenings, we learned about Reiki, about what it is and what it is NOT; we received our initiations and most of all we practiced Reiki! We practiced on ourselves, and each other. The atmosphere was relaxing and positive, and I really enjoyed myself. There is nothing complicated or difficult about learning the practice of Reiki, nothing painful, nothing religious, nothing strange. It is a natural, beneficial, balancing universal practice. And there is nothing like learning in person, and in such a wonderful group and environment! I feel truly blessed. Each night I’d go home and give myself a Reiki treatment, and I still do, every day, twice a day.

Reiki isn’t something you turn on and off, it isn’t something you have to “activate”. Once you are initiated by a Reiki Master, your hands feel like they basically switch into a different vibration (or at least they did for me). It really is like having new hands (hence the title of this post). Most of us expect some immediate radical change in our bodies, and our hands, from the treatment and the initiations. It is what we are accustomed to, mainly because of conventional medicine. You feel a pain, you take a pill, the pain goes away. That is why at first it may feel a bit odd when learning Reiki or experiencing a treatment from someone. That expectation of feeling “something” is just not a good way to go into Reiki. If it helps restore balance to our bodies in every level, then this is a very deep process which won’t feel like taking drugs at all. I know that everyone feels things differently, and this was proven at our own class. Some felt warm hands, and others like myself felt a constant “buzzing” of the hands. Some never really feel much, but the results still show up. The balancing that is  triggered also takes time and continued treatments.

I realized after some further thought and chatting with my Reiki teacher, that this “buzzing” I feel on my hands is not something new. I have felt it before, whenever I’ve done any energy work. So this sensation, this “buzzing” is not Reiki, but a sign that my aura/biofield is active. This makes sense because of my daily practice.

I try to place my Reiki hands on myself whenever possible. I do this a lot on the train, and even sitting at my desk at work, or watching tv. Sometimes I feel the “buzzing”, followed by relaxation, and sometimes I don’t feel much of anything. But I continue my  treatments.

Why do I continue? Well, although there may yet not be any solid scientific proof of what Reiki is doing, there certainly are a lot of people out there who have been healed by it. Reiki is even being used in many hospitals today as a complementary therapy for patients, and with great results. Personally, I’ve experienced relaxation, better sleep, and I’ve started to have better control of my migraine headaches. I think that’s more than enough for me to continue with my practice.

I am grateful for the opportunity to learn Reiki and for the future opportunities to share my Reiki hands and bring relief to others.

Thank you Pamela Miles.

Love and Blessings to all.

Sources: Reiki: A Comprehensive Guide by Pamela Miles (book)  Reiki, Medicine, and Self-Care with Pamela Miles (website)

Blessed by the 13 Indigenous Grandmothers

I found out about the council of 13 Indigenous Grandmothers through The Omega Institute. I never heard of them before, but I wanted to find out more. The 13 Indigenous Grandmothers represent a global alliance of prayer, education and healing for our Mother Earth, all Her inhabitants, all the children, and for the next seven generations to come. They are traveling around the world, encouraging and promoting projects that will save our lives and our future through preservation of the planet, and our indigenous ways amongst other things. They would be at Omega soon, but I just couldn’t afford to go there. There was the commute, the cost of the event and lodging. Just a few days ago, I read a tweet from Urban Zen announcing an event at their location in NYC, with the 13 Indigenous Grandmothers, and I could get a discount on the ticket. This was my chance! I got so excited. I started to spread the word, trying to get someone to join me. Unfortunately, none of my friends were able to go. I nearly changed my mind about going, but I am glad I did go after all. I bought my ticket on the day of the event (June 10, 2011). I also got caught up on some work at the office and was almost late to the event.

These wise women don’t just share their experience and wisdom with us, they also share their wonderful, positive, loving, caring amazing energy. The night started with inspiring, energetic music. The Urban Zen space is really stunning. I took a few photos but I didn’t want to interrupt so just a few without flash. If you’d like to see them check out my Photostream at Flickr. I walked by the grandmothers while they sat not far from the main stage, and then I looked for a good place to sit. The energy in the space was really positive, very strong. I felt very emotional and teary eyed.

Donna Karan came onstage after the music show to introduce the 13 Grandmothers. She shared her vision for Urban Zen, and the terrible pain of losing her husband. She really is doing great work with Urban Zen. May the Goddess and God bless her.

The 13 Indigenous Grandmothers slowly made their way onstage, with their translators and helpers and took their seats. Each grandmother took the microphone, one by one, and shared with everyone present, their thoughts and feelings regarding the environment, community, our responsibilities to our Mother Earth, and much more. Grandmother Agnes was the first one to speak, and she talked about water. She called us Water Babies. :) “Think about the water in your body. Talk to it, give it thanks every day” was one of the things she said. This resonated with me, as I’ve been very interested in how water responds to thoughts and feelings. Grandmother Agnes said we should drink lots of water, and we should revere water as a God because it gives us life. She even guaranteed that if we communicate and are thankful to our body’s water every day, we’ll feel much better overall and we’ll notice the difference after a few weeks. :)

Grandmother Flordemayo shared a vision she had while she was at a Crop Circle. She said that her father-in-law appeared to her, in a ball of blue light. Then he said that he brought her in a roundabout way to that place. And then she said that this same night, a guard who was doing a night shift at a place where there was a watch put on to avoid the forgery of crop circles, saw a blue light appear, and then there was a new crop circle. Very interesting.

Mona Polacca also stressed the importance of water, just as all the others did. She spoke about the sacred foundation of the 4 Elements which are the key to life and should be the focus of our prayers, our respect and care.

Two grandmothers were not there in person, so videos were presented with a message from each. Grandmother Bernadette Rebienot shared a positive message, letting us know that she has hope for the future which is great. She also mentioned how important prayer is. In fact they all pointed out how important it is for us to pray, for Mother Earth, for the 4 Elements our sacred foundation.

Clara Shinobu Iura’s video was very inspiring. She is a healer at Santa Casa de la Cura in the Amazon. She reminded us that the forest is our pharmacy, and we should respect and care for it as opposed to destroy it. The forest is essential for us to breathe, feed, and heal our bodies. The pharmaceutical industry ignores and turns its back on the deforestation, and yet their wealthy industry wouldn’t exist without the forest to begin with.

After all the grandmothers spoke, we all participated in an ancient Inuit ceremony. It was exhilarating! The music, the song, the howling! It was an amazing experience. After that, each and everyone attending the event had the opportunity to be personally blessed by one of the grandmothers. To be honest, I felt blessed since I walked into that place, just being there, listening to them talk, sing, and bless everyone in general. As I stood in line, waiting for my turn to receive a personal blessing from one of the grandmothers, I knew I would cry, because there was just so much positive, beautiful energy around me, I felt emotional. Margaret Behan Red Spider Woman blessed me. She did so quietly, and I quietly walked back to my chair, with tears in my eyes. I sat down to meditate, as more tears streamed down my face, and my hands and chest felt very warm. In my mind I saw grandmother Red Spider Woman hand me a flame, placing it in my hands.

Agnes Baker-Pilgrim gave a final prayer, which was full of love, compassion and emotion. She cried, and I cried. As Grandmother Jyoti said, I was “having a moment with my water”. I walked out of Urban Zen feeling light and relaxed, affected by the presence of The 13 Indigenous Grandmothers.

“We have to Be the New Vision, and live the New Vision.” -Grandmother Jyoti


Being myself half the time or half-myself most of the time

This is a subject many are familiar with. Living two lives; one secret, one public, one that you are open about, one that you keep from most people. Raise your hand if you are currently doing this! I’m sure many are. I’ve been doing this myself as well for a long time. But lately I have begun to question, now more than ever, if I should continue doing this. Is it really necessary anymore? Is it time to be honest, to “come out of the closet” 100% instead of 50?

Recently, I was having lunch with 2 colleagues and the conversation was about good books we’ve recently read, as well as bad ones. I felt like I couldn’t really say anything, and that if I did, if I mentioned that I really enjoyed ‘Dancing the Inner Serpent’, ‘The Mysteries of Isis’ and ‘The Mayan Code’, their faces would have gone blank and maybe some “funny” comments would have followed. Of course I can’t be sure that would have been the reaction, but I have had similar in the past when I have been open about my real interests.

One disaster I can clearly remember was when I was so excited to have participated in a documentary film for the History Channel back in 2005. I had no idea my friends would just turn it into a joke and laugh at the film, the idea, everything about it. I wanted to yell at them for doing so but instead I acted like nothing happened and just changed the subject. Up to this day, the History Channel still repeats it over and over, and the reactions to those who recognize me are, good reactions from the Pagans and bad reactions from the rest. Go figure.

Being open about my spiritual path and practices is something I have wanted to do many times. Some wise people have told me that I should know when it is ok to be honest, and when I should just keep it to myself. Some people just aren’t ready to understand certain things, and some may never be able to understand. Not in this lifetime.

I don’t blame people for their ignorance, or their lack of open-mindedness. I myself was brought up a Christian Catholic, and I know by personal experience, the brainwashing that goes on in that place. The fear I grew up with would never allow me to consider anything which my church had deemed “evil” to be anything but pure “evil”. There was no possibility other than what they had taught me. At least not until I broke free.

So over the years, most of my friends, and relatives have simply thought that I was different, that I liked weird things, and my favorite, that I was “going through a phase” and should not be taken seriously. There is no reason for me to need their approval of course. If I had waited for that my life would be quite miserable hahaha! We can’t make everyone happy, so we have to at least work on being happy ourselves.

Then why am I questioning the “keeping two lives separately” custom? I should just leave it as is, it means less trouble, less headaches doesn’t it? I’m not so sure about that, that’s why. I’ve decided to keep 2 Facebook accounts, and the thought of having 2 Twitter accounts as well has begun to come up and it is really annoying. Why can’t I just be myself 100%, instead of being half myself depending on who is watching? It’s the year 2011!

I follow some amazing people on Twitter, who are open because their careers/jobs are interconnected with their spiritual paths. That is wonderful! Mine isn’t, unfortunately.

Things have to change.


A cure for cancer? It’s been around for a while.

Responsible spiritual people (and just responsible people in general) take care of their bodies and their health because it is part of our personal development and living a harmonious, productive life. It is no surprise then that we care about what we eat, our lifestyles and our environment.

It is important for us to educate ourselves and stay up to date regarding information about subjects such as organic food, sustainability, alternative medicine, exercising, and anything related. We also help spread facts about things that affect us negatively like GMO’s and Monsanto.

It is because of all this, that I am writing this post. I feel the responsibility to share information, to try to reach people and even if I spark the interest of just one person, I’ve done some good.

When it comes to deadly diseases like Cancer, we all have lost someone or know someone who has. This horrible disease kills too many people each year and it seems to keep spreading fast. I lost my grandmother to Cancer about two years ago. Once you lose someone close to you to this, you tend to become more interested in the subject if you weren’t interested before.

A friend suggested I watch a documentary titled ‘The Beautiful Truth’. That documentary changed the way I look at a lot of things, starting with chronic diseases. To know that there is a cure for cancer and many other chronic diseases, was really enlightening, and at the same time it angered me. Why? There are so many people out there suffering, so many organizations asking for “donations” so that they can “find a cure”….why? When someone has already found a cure, even presented this cure in front of US Congress including several cured patients and all the evidence needed, only to be shoved aside. The reason is simple. The cure doesn’t benefit Big Pharma at all. There is no miracle drug that will make someone rich beyond their dreams. It is a lot simpler than that, and that is why it has been shoved aside for so long, even prohibited in some cases.

The Gerson Therapy is a powerful, natural treatment that boosts your body’s own immune system to heal cancer, arthritis, heart disease, allergies, and many other degenerative diseases. People from different parts of the world visit the Gerson Institute (in Mexico and Hungary) seeking the therapy that for them is their last resort. This therapy can also be administered at home, and there are certified Gerson caregivers. It has led to the healing of people who were sent home to die by their doctors. I highly recommend everyone watch The Gerson Miracle. You won’t regret it. You can watch it on Hulu right now and on Netflix. Once you watch this documentary, you will want to share the wealth of information with others. This is highly important information that needs to be shared.

And once you have this knowledge, you see things differently. Why is this person asking for money to “save children with cancer”? Why are there even children suffering like that? Why are there so called charities asking for money to “find a cure”? It is absolutely unbelievable and unacceptable! And people having to go to Mexico to be healed with the Gerson Therapy, while others get poisoned and killed fast with chemo therapy in every hospital in the USA. We must educate ourselves and share the knowledge, that is the bottom line.

Yes, I am promoting The Gerson Institute, but I am not doing this for any personal or monetary benefit. I am doing it because it is time we stop suffering, and start living.

Find out more:
The Gerson Institute:
Watch ‘The Gerson Miracle’ on Hulu now: or on Netflix:
Watch ‘The Beautiful Truth’ online now:

Live a healthy life now. And spread the truth.